Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Calgon, Take Me Away!

I think my body is trying to tell me something. My back is tight and painful. My stomach reacts after eating anything that is not completely bland. I have headaches and lots of itching. So much itching, in fact, that it causes bruising. For most of December my legs and sides looked like someone was beating me. No lie. The doctor didn't have any ideas but checked some blood work and said everything was normal.

Stress.

It's manifesting itself physically. Someone mentioned to me the concept of Chakras. I've just started doing some reading but what I've read so far is resonating with me. There are 7 chakras, which are centers of energy. When they are open things are working the way they should be. If they're blocked, well, that's when you begin having problems. I did a test I found online and determined that all of my chakras are blocked, or under-active, with the exception of one.

So how do I open them is the big question? How do I bring my life more in line?

Right now I feel as if I have no voice in how my time is allotted. School takes about 20 hours per week, work is 40 hours. There is almost always 1-2 hours for various doctor appointments and there also has to be time to study. In March I begin my preceptor-ship for my LPN program which entails 24 hours per week for 8-10 weeks while continuing to work full-time. None of this takes into account various other stressors that abound.

I've read a few various ways of unblocking chakras but wonder what's the right way? Is there a right way? Any suggestions?

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Stronger




Hush, just stop
There’s nothing you can do or say, baby
I’ve had enough
I’m not your property as from today, baby
You might think that I won't make it on my own
But now I’m…

Stronger than yesterday
Now it’s nothing but my way
My loneliness ain’t killing me no more
I’m stronger

Than I ever thought that I could be, baby
I used to go with the flow
Didn’t really care ‘bout me
You might think that I can’t take it, but you’re wrong
‘Cause now I’m…

Stronger than yesterday
Now it’s nothing but my way
My loneliness ain’t killing me no more
I’m stronger

Here I go, on my own
I don’t need nobody, better off alone
Here I go, on my own now
I don’t need nobody, not anybody
Here I go, alright, here I go


Stronger than yesterday
Now it’s nothing but my way
My loneliness ain’t killing me no more
I’m stronger

Yes, for you music lovers, the lyrics are from a song by Miss Britney Spears. Maybe she's no role model for tweens and teens but these lyrics hit home and say what I need to hear.

2010 passed by in a blur thanks to my ability to bury my head in the sand while staying insanely busy. So many things happened; lost friends regained, new friends made, medical problems, money problems, losing sight of what's important, finding that sight again, making a stand.

But I learned something. I am strong. Everyday I can be stronger. If I make a stand, he will back down. It can be my way.





I am stronger than yesterday.

Now it's nothing by my way.