Sunday, June 22, 2008

Thank You, Thank You!

My heart is still singing! I don't have to let the kids go! I know it is rather selfish of me, but I'm not apologizing. I was so scared and worried about sending them into a situation I knew nothing about in a home I'd never visited with a woman I'd only met twice for about 10 minutes each visit. I am so thankful right now I could cry out of happiness. The hard part is that I can't tell anyone just yet as Mr. Ex wants to tell all of the children himself when they can all be on the phone together. This afternoon when we go visit family will be hard as everyone will be getting ready to tell them goodbye and I will know that they're not leaving! Actress is visiting her aunt this weekend and won't be home until later today so my lips must remain sealed until then.

I did tell my mom yesterday. I know that this has been eating at her almost as much as it has been me. I don't think it's going to far to say that she hates Mr. Ex and the idea of her grandchildren being that far away with this man and an unknown woman was bothering her quite extensively. The only thing she said to me was to caution me that he may want to move in with us. My response? Amazement and laughter that she would even think it. Yes, Mr. Ex and I get along just fine but I'm not quite that forgiving. I must remember that she does not yet know Mr. Irony and I are house-shopping together (she still has not acknowledged even meeting him!).

Mr. Ex's sister called yesterday on the behalf of Mr. Ex to let me know that it was nothing I did, but rather, the relationship has been falling apart for a while now. Apparently there were all sorts of issues, not that it's any of my business. Mr. Ex will be living with his sister and her family until he gets back on his feet. She also wanted me to know that the kids are welcome there with him anytime and that she and her family are looking forward to the kids being there quite often. I hope this goes well. We'll see. Mr. Ex's family lives for drama so the only guarantee is that nothing ever goes smoothly with them. Oh, the stories I could write about my life with them!

I hope, once we get moved, that we can adjust somewhat smoothly into the new visitation arrangements. I hope that this will be best for the kids and that Mr. Ex can get himself back on track and figure out where he wants to go in life. I hope he figures out that money does not make for self-fulfillment and happiness. I truly want him to become a better dad to his children. I want him to find someone that he can live happily and comfortably with as his partner. (That certainly isn't me!). I just want whomever he finds down the road to be someone whom I can get along with and feel friendly toward.

I'm not extremely religious. Mr. Ex's family is, (I used to be) and they would say this is part of God's plan to bring his prodigal son back into the fold. Whether or not that's true, whether or not it was karma, I don't know, some of both perhaps? I do find it interesting that this glorious news came on the summer solstice. Coincidence? I'm certainly not the one to say. I'm just thankful for the news. Thankful for the burden that was on my heart to be lifted and thrown away. Thankful that I can now share my babies with their dad rather than be torn from them.

Thanks to all of you for your support when I believed them to be leaving me for six weeks. Thanks to all of your well wishes now that they're staying put. Thanks to all of you for reading my sometimes rambling posts! Thanks for the sense of community that you give me!

Happy Sunday ya'll! Let's go enjoy the day!


Vanessa said...

This is so exciting and wonderful! I am so happy for you and the kids, even though they don't know yet. I am more spiritual than religious,and think it's no coincidence this happened on Solstice. It looks like it's going to be one great summer for you and the kids. Hooray for small favors!

Nichole M said...

What great news! I can just see the relief in your writing. Now you guys can *really* have a great summer!

Diane said...

That's great news! You were so upset about it and, thankfully, it was for nothing. Now you can go and have a great summer and not have to worry for a single second about that!

LizSara said...

Oh I'm soooo doing my happy dance for you now!

the mama bird diaries said...

That's wonderful. So happy for your happiness.